Remose and sorrow fills her day

Update : I've changed my blogsong to a piano piece. Enjoy.

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Silent words across a screen.
How could they mean so much to me.
I promised myself I would not cry.
Then a silent tear falls from my eye.

~ Lostinlove

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I hope that time will heal me soon. Maybe I should try Christianity.

I've changed the icon on the top of the page, it best describes my state now.

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Today was a short day because it was Founder's Day.

Had English test that's all about shark fins. I slept for like 15 mins before doing the test because I was tired.

Recess was damn fun. Me and Linda was like fooling around with Fiona's handphone, taking random pictures of everyone. Saw Cheecheng's new cam! Hot pink, damn chio.


Then when we were returning back to class, Caifang thought that she left her wallet in the canteen and both of us were like freaking out, and in the end, it was my precious god-daughter that had her wallet. ( FYI : Its Linda )


Founders' Day Celebration was kind of good, all of the teachers walked 85 km and more 'cause its our 85th founders' day.


Cool.


Then went to bubbletea with YuPin, Hsing Man, Wei Shan, Erin & Vanessa.

Erin, Vanessa & Weishan ( I have no idea why I kept on typing shan shan shan ) left after awhile then me, YuPin & Hsing Man stayed there.


All of the things that happened was damn funny. ( HsingMan, next time me and yupin buy the alchohol rub for you 'kay! )


Went to the library to chat for awhile before they left to help guzheng people buy bubbletea, so I went home.


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Took a nap, and I woke up in tears.


It was the worst dream in my life. I mean, the dream WAS damn sweet! And I woke up still hoping that the dream was real.


Everything that happened in the dream isn't gonna happen anymore.


I hate dreams, I hate naps. I'm not going to take naps from now onwards.


I'm gonna be taking a break from all these. No love for the time being.


Why did I even take a nap?! I was almost healing, and I had to dream of...

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I'm fucking drained.

Forced smiles are very tiring.

Can someone just please lend me a shoulder to just .... break down and not give me some weird stares?

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I'll promise happy post not-so-soon. Just bear with me for a while 'kay? I know reading emo posts are not exactly what you call fun.



xo;

But now her dreams flew by, broken by a slur

Everything's over.

Talked things out, but still didn't manage to salvage it.

Its okay, time will heal me soon.

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Today was kind of fun.

Supposed to take temperature for the Swine Flu thing, but Mdm C. didn't come, so Miss Quek took over us!

She was as usual, very lame, and damn funny. She told us some cold jokes that were seriously really lame, & Emmanuel's in her fanclub!

Skipped 1 period of Chemistry due to temperature taking, & Keanna gave me this heart shaped sweet to prove that she loves me. Ahah! She's damn ke ai!


PE was fun too. Frisbee. Our group kept on doing the walk of shame, but still, I felt really great stepping out and taking in loads of fresh air :D


CaiFang was damn worried & she kept on asking if I'm alright. Thankssss :D


Oh, and and I accidently left my phone in the bathroom during Maths, and I ran back there like some mad woman, and saw Siew Woon holding my phone and asking around. Thanks :D


I totally love SS, English & CME period today. All of them were in the same room, and because Mdm Chng didn't come, I pratically slept through the three lessons.


But during CME period, me, Bhavna, Elaine & Linda did something to BryanKry.


The smile was kind of forced by Yours Truly -.- I felt kind of mean towards him but then you have to admit, vadalising on arms are always fun - as long as they're not yours :D


Had Chinese after that and had Chinese Oral Test. The passage was damn easy, scored 9/10 for that. The conversation was friggin' hard. The topic was like gambling issues in Singapore. I blabbed for around 2 minutes.


& During the oral, I was trying my best to not look at teacher's face 'cause his face cracks me up for no reason.

Ahah.

Me and Caifang :

Aww, caifang refuses to show her face no matter what -.-

I know my smile looks kind of forced, but you try smiling with a bad mood -.-

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Thanks to everybody who've comforted me over the past 2 days. ( Including that nice person who've listened to me cry over the phone -.- I hope I didn't freak you out. & Thanks for the advices. )

I wouldn't have survived all these without you guys. I love y'all! <3

I know I'm really emotional, y'know, going " I'm so bloody depressed " and stuff.

But now, I know that I've done my best, and nothing could be saved.

I'm not gonna cry anymore but I'm still gonna need time.

I'll let everything go, that's the only option I have now.

Je t'aime, for the last time.

& I hope you're not angry with me or anything.

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I've given away my heart, so that it could be torn into pieces

No happy post today.

I don't even know where to begin.

Yeah, people who hate me or something, you should be damn happy, 'cause I'm down.

I broke down in SS. I think I've scared Tiffany. She was really sweet to me. Thanks :)

Recess. I was practically begging Eva to play a piece of slow melody on the piano. She played a really nice piece, and I was really hoping that the piece will never end. Thanks :)

Bhavna, don't worry, I'm fine ... soon. Thanks for asking if I'm alright :)

Completely didn't pay attention during Math & Chinese. Common tests are in 2 week time. Dead.


Went to bubbletea with Linda, Doreen, LaiMin & Laura.


Linda's the bomb. I was feeling very depressed and had an over one hour talk with her. Love her to the max!!!!!


I've failed my bio test, aced my chinese test. Very satisfied with my chinese :D'

Chinese Oral tomorrow. Help.


After this, I'm even more determined to get plastic when I'm an adult.


x;

Savez-vous comment j'ai été déprimée?
Je t'aime, je le dis pour la dernière fois.
Je suis vraiment fatiguée, et ce sera mon dernier temps de pleurer pour vous.
Je vais laisser aller, si c'est ce que vous voulez.
Le jeu de l'amour que j'ai perdu.



( Sorry, I'm not very good in foreign languages. )

Smashed into pieces, covered in blood

I'm seriously god-damn-it tired.

Maybe because I slept super late yesterday. Hmmm.


Morning, me and lindapang was like arguing if Joshua is hotter or Daiyangtian. Of course dyt! Ahah, then dor was like in the middle. Awwwww too bad :b


Geo lecture today in the auditorium. It was so damn boring because Mdm Ng was the one giving the lecture. Then teacher said something and Elaine went " Meh Meh " and our class had to stand for 10 - 15 mins?


I didn't mind it at all, 'cause it was damn funny.


Oh, and I freaking dozed off for like the last 5 minutes. -.-


Had Chemistry, teacher joined the tables so I sat with Keanna. Ahah she is very funny and she said that I look like Caifang?! Ahah.


English lesson. Did some kind of debate thing. Then we had to fight for " President of the Toilet Association " for debate. Then many people were like : " XXX got a PHD in toilet cleaning! "


Anyway, I don't like the Mr J. 'cause he freakin' suan-ed me in front of the class. Damn him -.-


Math lesson. Miss K. was like late so we sat at the lockers there, and Eugene Khoo kept on harping on Dyt -.- He'll go " DAIYANGTIAN! " then I'll scream.


Oh, and Jared, if you see this, I'm not from physics. I think you're the only one now that believes I'm from physics. Sorry! Ahah, but it was damn fun to see your reaction!


Walked to interchange with CheeCheng and met HuiTing. I'm damn surprised when Denise knows my name :o

Ahah!


I need to sleep early today. Let's see, 12. Hmmm set.


There's bio tomorrow, I'm surprisingly excited. I hope I don't doze off again.


Dinner with grandmama on 9th May, though its near the exams, I am still darn looking forward to it. LOVE YOU GRANDMAMA :D


x;

Je t'aime, Tu me manques

:)

Waiting for a star to fall

Mood : Calm
Smells like Lavender
Random thought : I wonder if we're gonna drift apart ...

I'm supposed to be studying but oh well, I feel that I must post because ...


DAIYANGTIAN JUST GOT BEST NEWCOMER AWARD FOR STAR AWARDS!



Happyhappyhappy!


I screamed and I was really proud of him! But then, my father went bonkers and switched off the teevee. Wtfh? Y'know, before dyt got his prize, my father was like " I support everyone, but dyt won't and can't get the prize "in a furious tone. Fucked up. ( Sorry, try to put yourself in my shoes )


Well, I've spend my entire afternoon shopping online. Found some great stuffs, wondering if they'll fit me. Gosh, I MUST seriously stop spending money.


Anyway, I love my mum. She screamed at my dad and she was really supportive of me screaming :D


Oh, and there was a thunderstorm today, and Juliana didn't hide under the blankets! I'm brave :b


Well, I'm supposed to be working on my A Math this weekend, but I didn't. I'm so bloody lazy. I wonder how am I going to score well for my common tests. Argh ):


Anyway, I'm gonna change my blogsong too. I bet you guys are sick of the song already, I'm gonna change it to a playlist kind :D


See, I'm a considerate blogger! ( Thickskinned! )


Wait for it! I hope you guys will like the songs I've chosen on my playlist!


I'm wondering now. How on earth does _____ knows my name.


Freaaaaakkkkkkyyyyyyy.


Daiyangtian, rock on.


Ohohoh, there's like renovation going on next door. Its one month long. OHMYGOSH, HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE!


x;

Sorrow drips your heart into a pinhole

My mood is currently freakin' messed up.


One of my daily moodswings I guess.


The weather's so freakin' warm, I think I can fry an egg without any stoves.


I've wasted my day, doing absolutely nothing, except for watching ' Boys over flowers '. Its the Korean version of ' Meteor Garden ' & I totally recommend it.


I'm damn down now, because there weren't enough tickets for me to attend star awards tomorrow. Kind of disappointed, 'cause I've marked that day on my calender and have been looking forward to it since last year.


But nevermind, I'll get over it soon.


Soon.


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I'm taking deep breaths to calm myself now. I hope my moodswing will go away soon.


I'll be rooted in front of the teevee tomorrow @ 8 p.m to cheer on for Dyt.


& The main reason for my moodswing, isn't really because of the star awards.

I found this online :

One night, a husband and wife were having
a conversation during dinner:

WOMAN: What would you do if I died?
Would you get married again?

MAN: Definitely not!

WOMAN: Why not -
don't you like being married?

MAN: Of course I do.

WOMAN: Then why wouldn't you remarry?

MAN: Okay, I'd get married again.

WOMAN: You would?
(with a hurtful look on her face)

MAN: (makes audible groan)

WOMAN: Would you sleep with her in our bed?

MAN: Where else would we sleep?

WOMAN: Would you put away my pictures,
and replace them with pictures of
her?

MAN: That would seem like the proper thing to do.

WOMAN: And would you let her use my golf clubs?

MAN: She can't use them; she's left-handed.

WOMAN: - - - silence - - -

MAN: Shit.

Hah. Stupid guy eh?

Don't worry if you don't get the joke after reading it, I read it two times to understand.


x;

Last chances

Today was such a depressing day. Lemme explain.


Had Bio test. Totally didn't know how to do it, my fear now is not about failing, its about Mrs C wanting to see me IF I fail the test. Then she'll nag and nag and nag -.-


Then had SS surprise test. Actually Mdm C. did tell us that there was a test, but we played dumb so she gave us 30 minutes to make a set of notes. For the first time in 15 years of my life, I wrote a damnnnnn long essay. Accomplishment at the end of the lesson was ah-mazing.



Oh, and have I mentioned that I want a new nose? ( I suddenly thought about HsingMan & her ' fake ' nose -.- )


Rushed to the auditorium after chapel for the seniors stepping down ceremony. Miss W. showed us a slideshow with pictures of drama during Everland, camp, and SYF.


I was damn touched, partially because she used this sad Korean song and the thought of my seniors leaving.... although there were 2 unglams of me. One when I was jumping like some crazy woman and one when I was laughing and pointing at Andy Tan -.-


Had lunch with Shing Pheng. She is seriously the best senior EVER. I feel so damn relaxed around her, can't believe that she's leaving the school after her o levels this year.


): Shing Pheng, if you are reading this, I LOVE YOU! Hahhhhh, I'm not lesbian -.-


All of our seniors had to say something to Miss Wong, to thank her and I think Miss Wong almost cried. It was so damn touching. Miss Chng and Miss Lee was at the ceremony too.



Seniors, you guys have given your best to drama and we love you (:

Now that drama's left to the sec 3s ... its time to ...



torture the juniors :D ( Bhavna, Su En, ready??? )


Okayokay I'm joking! Juniors, I'm a very nice senior. Make sure you guys cry when I leave! ( Thick skin uh )



And um, people, when you MSN me or text me from 6 p.m to 8 p.m and I didn't reply, it means that I'm sleeping. I was damn shocked to find 7 smses and 6 convos when I woke up. Sorry for not changing my status!


Well, something happened at home at night.


I almost made rash decisions, but regretted because mummy called me and she ... cried.

I love my mum, hurts to see her in agony because of some stupid things that I told her.

There were tears, shouting, vulgars, violence, fear and unhappiness.

& the few people who knows about this, thanks for comforting me :D & letting me know that I'm not alone.

( Awww, touching moment, are you gonna cry? Ahahaha )


I can't wait for Mothers' Day! I'm so going to go out with my mum & become best friends with her FOREVER :D <3 Gossip, High Tea, Facial, Movies, Shopping!


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The weather's so friggin' humid these few days.

( If your aircon is switched on when you are reading this, switch it off! Be eco-friendly! )

I'm roasted.



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Fingers crossed that I'll be able to get tickets for the Star Awards on Sunday!


x;


Its amazing how a text message can paint my frown into a smile so quickly.
:)

Nothing can stop this creeping fear

I love Thursdays, my classes end at 1:10p.m, awesome.

As you can see, nothing exciting has really happened to me these few days, so I'm kind of blogging for the sake of blogging.


Had briefing for our Sec 3 Adventure Camp in the morning. I didn't want to go at first, but the camp instructor made it sound ... fun. He was very lame, though -.-


The day was boring boring boring & y'know what, boring.


Gahh, I don't feel like posting anymore.


Oh, and the pair of heels I ordered online are arriving, soon. Damn excited!


& I'm so dead 'cause I haven't even study for my bio test tomorrow!


Short post huh? Wait for my life to get more exciting.


x;


You guys don't know how insecure I can get at times.

Love will tear us apart... again.

I am freakin' tired man!

Had a super long Wednesday in school today. All Wednesdays are long, anyway.


Morning was a torture. Mr H. made all our class stand up at first, 'cause we took wayyyy too long to settle down. Then he made all the sec 3s stand and sit, sit and stand.

& We finally got our SYF results.


We got a ...

















Bronze ):

Sigh, its damn sad 'kay. I mean like, I wasn't expecting too much, just a silver, to prove that drama is just as hard working as other asthetics CCA.


I almost cried when Miss W. told us. Seriously, all of us put in hell-loads of effort :(

& Miss W. still told us that Mr Low wants us to sing the school song with him on Founder's day?!
I am sooo not gonna sing.


Was really depressed during Chem. Thanks Keanna, for cheering me up :D I felt so much better after she talked to me. Chem experiment was kind of cool, watching the magnesium ribbon dissolve in the acid. Awesome.



Frisbee during PE was ah-mazing. It was damn fun although it was damn warm and tiring from all the running.


Cheena test. Am gonna flunk it.


Oh, and a minute ago, I thought I saw a cockroach, and I jumped and wanted to scream, then I realised that its a rubberband -.-


&& My Miumiu is so darn cute! ( My kitten in pet society ) Especially when she sleeps and when I give her strawberries. Ah-dorable!


I'm so gonna buy GossipGirl DVDs. Gerard Goh, you better help me or something. Its like NC16 and you're 16. Hah.


'kay, I'll blog more on my boring life next time.


Nights.


x;

Strangers with their feigned interest, while those I love have turned away

Today was fine.

I'm trying real hard to recall what has happened, or if anything interesting has happened.

But nope, can't remember anything.

Ohohoh, geo lesson today was damn ....

We has test, and as usual, we didn't study for it. Then Jiayi & Elaine went to put textboks under their tables. Then D. Foo walked past and saw it, so she went to tell our new Geo teacher, Mdm N. She immediately gave them a zero. Wth -.-


Everybody was like complaining like crazy that she ressembles Mdm C. Hah.


Well basically nothing happened much today. I kind of enjoyed Chemistry 'cause I understood what the teacher was teaching.


MY POST IS BORING.


& Bhavna and Caifang made me crazy during Math lesson. I'm officially traumatized.


Okay I have no idea what to blog about anymore, so I'm off to do work.


&&& Sorry if I'm acting all weirdly these few days. I have terrible moodswings and I know its not really an excuse to treat you guys like that.


I WANT TO KNOW MY SYF RESULTS.



Tata.

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I have no.more.strength.left.

Friends, for-never

Whoooooooooo.

I just came back from my Daiyangtian activity at Suntec's Travel Fiesta.

I met up with the girls ( fanclub ) at 2 p.m and Huimin passed me my fanclub tee!

One word : AWESOME!

Although the quality wasn't really very good, but still, I love it. Partially 'cause I wouldn't have to worry 'bout what to wear anymore for the next few events.

The host for the day has super small eyes. Ahah, SMALLER THAN MINE!! Damn happy. Hah.

Anyway, he sang a song. " Lu tai wan " by Wilber Pan. Damn nice x 100000!

I took loads of pictures of him, but I won't post all up in case of people ripping off and posting in another forums.

We took a fanclub picture with him :DD & I shook his hands and wished him good luck for star awards. Gahhhhhhhh * melts *

& There is this ah-nnoying guy in blue who kept rushing us. Screw him -.-

SiTian taught me how to change without taking off my shirt. Awsome.

I kept on cravin' for sweet things today. I'm off to chomp my subway cookies.

I can't wait for star awards next Sunday. Hopefully there'll be enough tickets for me to go.

I HEART DYT SINGAPORE FC! <33

Ciao.

x;

EDITED :

Good luck to :

Choir
Chinese Dance
& Guzheng

for their SYF tomorrow! ALL THE BEST!

I'm tangled up in your slander

I'm posting at sucha late late timing.

School was damn fun today.


The coolest thing that have ever happened so far :


Hazel wore guy's uniform pants to school! I tell you, she is th bomb man!!!


We had Bio pratical and surprisngly, the lab wasn't really warm, but still, warmer than outside.


Then, it was recess time and fun starts :D


It was International Friendship Day and all of the sec 3 classes have to set up a booth and sell food releated to the country that they are in charge of.


My class did Laos.


But none of the food we sold is related to Laos. Ahah. I don't think Laos people drink bubbletea right? :b

I don't think the school gives a damn anyway, since the most important thing is to earn profit.


Business was darn good during the lower sec recess. We managed to sell off all of our bubbleteas. Mdm C. fetched a few guys to the bubbletea shop and ordered like 60 more cups. Craziness man!


Business wasn't really good during Upper sec recess, 'cause most of them wanted proper food :/

I think we managed to earn some money. Hah, 3 peace rocks man.

Then we kind of missed one period of Chem, & Mrs G. went to the GO and made announcement for us to go to her class but most of us didn't hear it -.-


Business wasn't really good afterschool when we ran out of bubbletea.

Then someone brought a tub of icecream at 3 Faith's booth and everybody was fighting to scoop the icecream into their pita bread. -.-


& Leon Tai was like poking my face non-stop.

L : * Pokes pokes *
J : Oi, don't poke!
L * Continues poking *
J : You poke again I bite your finger! -.-
L : * pokes pokes *

I almost chomped on his finger. Don't sue me, its self-defence. Hah. I bet he dares not to poke me anymore now.


Drama started, and we watched the SYF play once more. I think it was good :) but Miss W. told us that the results won't be out 'till next week.


Y'know, during the play, Leon.L was beside me. I kept laughing for nothing and he kept ' Tsk ' me and asking me if I'm crazy. Thanks ya -.-

& Rachel, my senior said that 2 years ago, they waited one month for the results...


Omg x 100?!


& Next friday, all of my graduating seniors will be stepping down ... :(

SHING PHENG, I DON'T WANT YOU TO STEP DOWN!!


I flimed a video of Andy, Clara.T, Tessa & Suen. Hah I'm not gonna post it up :b ( Bhavna, only the both of us in the entire world has the video! )


Had a short chat with Bhavna. I hope everything will be fine for her! God bless!


& Thanks Fransicus, for helping me to solve one of the math equation.


Is my post long? Hah, don't you dare complain 'cause I rarely have the mood to post such a long post nowadays.


I'm tired. But I'm not sleeping ... yet. :b

Ciao.

x

I. can't. take. this. anymore.
I'm going to crack soon.

A slab of ice between us that needs shattering

Hey people-who-are-reading-this-post-now!


My muscles are currently hurting like crazy from yesterday's 5 items test. My thighs hurt the most. I think I over stretched it. :/


Nothing much happened in school today. Choir, Guzheng and Chinese Dance performed during upper sec assembly. Drama & Modern dance were supposed to perform too, but drama's sets were wayyyyy too heavy and bulky.


A Math was like .... was like ... I don't know -.- I kept on wanting to fall asleep.


Chinese was okay. Half of the class was sleeping though. I slept at the end, after I'm tired of disturbing the-girl-with-plaits-beside-me. Heh.


( SOS, I THINK I LOST MY LAMENESS IN MY POSTS. HELP ME SEARCH FOR IT! )


-.-


Lets continue.


I shan't harp on what happened after school, 'cause there were wayyyy too much drama ( as in, not the CCA -.- )

When a drama mama says that there is too much drama, there IS seriously wayy too much drama.


Planeloads of love & thanks to those people who've comforted me. I love you guys 'kay? :D & I'll be fine soon.

& Doreen, thanks for the shoulder. And curry noodles are damnnnnnn nice y'know. Don't you want to eat it? * winks *


I'm having a terrible headache. Goshhh.


Ciao.


xoxo;

Damage inside you or not, never give it up.

I swear yesterday night rocked. I didn't know my archives were so funny.


&& Can you believe it? I'm actually lovin' Chemistry! Though Mrs G. is scary, the way she teach is ah-mazing.

And, I finally took my 5 items test. My results are all crap, except for standing board jump. I managed to get a 185 cm for that. I used to be able to jump 192 cm, but I didn't practice for a uber long time. ( My height is 155, I guess 185's pretty good? )


& Frisbee seems fun, we didn't really get a chance to play a proper game, 'cause it started pouring heavily -.-


A Maths was darn confusing. I spent most of the lesson being super irritating and pissing Doreen off. Hah ain't I niceeeeeeeeeee?


Rest of the day was oh-kay. Nothing much. We have this International Friendship Day booth thingy on Friday. My team and I are prety hyped up over this!


I managed to take a 30 mins nap just now. Ah, I feel kind of refreshed now :D and I'm not gonna let anything ruin my mood.


I'm off to do my work!


11 more days to Star Awards
Few more hours to 17 again movie release
?? days to SYF results
Few more hours to ______.


Thats all :D

Stay tuned, I might post interesting posts .... soon.

Ciao!

xoxo;



Hey EW ( Eternal Wannabe ), why are you actin' like as if the whole world owes you something?

( If you think I'm referring to you, there's nothin' I can do to change your way of thinkin'. )

The 5 stages of grief - Anger

The 3 days holidays ended just like that.


I totally didn't have any mood to study yesterday because of some reasons.


Had my A Math test today. Flunked it. Left all of the questions blank except for some workings. Single digit mark for sure. The only thing I am hoping now is that I won't get a zero.


I still owe Miss K. a worksheet. Gosh, my homework is like piling higher and higher, and most of them are due already.


Today was okay. Hazel totally rocked in SS. Y'should've seen CKN's face when Hazel made her speechless.


Chinese rocks, because Hsing Man sat with me and Doreen and it was damn funny I swear. I had a terrible case of hiccups and HsingMan was like saying what later the whole choir got hiccups and everybody will jump together. -.-



& I totally regret hitting the sheets at 1 a.m yesterday. I felt like a zombie the entire day today. I almost fell asleep while walking -.-


There's chemistry tomorrow. How on earth am I going to survive the 80 minutes! Mrs G.'s fast pace kills.


&&& There's PE tomorrow too. Heard that we're gonna do frisbee. That means there will be loads of running, that means I'll burn calories. AWESOME!


My post is damn boring. Are you falling asleep by now? I should totally become a writer for midnight stories.


Oh, andandand, I DON'T LIKE CINNAMON FLAVOURED JELLYBEANS. THEY BURN MY TONGUE!!! I wonder which pervertic person went to invent so many disgusting flavours of jellybeans.


Can't they be more peaceful and come out with flavours that doesn't gives off a weird taste?! Some of them taste worse than medicine. -.-


Okay, I am off to do something. But I can't decide on what something to do ( I have no idea what I've just typed ).

12 more days to Star awards
?? more days to SYF results.


xoxo;

I am so not going to help you anymore.
'cause its not worth the effort when I get a huge piece of attitude in return.

( I know I'm harsh, but I just feel like venting it alllll out. I'll be more chilled in the future )

Just around the corner, just another mile

Drama just had their SYF.

Butbutbut, before I continue right, I must really thank those people that wished me, or rather, us, luck.

You guys gave me the confidence and support I need, so truckloads of thanks to y'all! :D

But no thanks to screwed up people who kept on wishing that drama will get COP ( Certificate of Participation ).

Reached school at 9 a.m today. Saw CKN and she made me go home and change shoes. Screw her okay. I wasted like 13 bucks on taxi fare 'cause I was already late and she made me go home and change shoes.

Thank you Erin, for accompanying me. I think I will be like extremely tensed up without you. She remained super calm during the whole trip and I was like one blabbing like some machine gun -.-

Didn't do much for drama. I was peeping at the people in the concourse assembled for their 5 items test. Hah, some people were like shocked that I'm upstairs. :o

& Poor Suen is sick today. She's down with fever and sore throat. Hope that she'll get well soon!

Went for lunch at around 12.30? Then when we were about to set off at 1.05, Mr Low came and prayed for all of us! &&& All of us put our hands together and shouted " Kuo Chuan! "

I tell you, that moment was just simply amazing. I could feel drama's unity! :D

Then when we set off and headed for ACS Barker!

The school's damn huge! It has its own swimming pool and its canteen is just like a food court -.-, minus the aircon. I think if I go to school there, I will put on 10kg or something.

Watched the cast do some warm ups and rehearse. They are good man!

The play is really AH-MAZING. SERIOUSLY! I think that the script was well written, if you could understand the meaning behind it.

& Miss Lee says that she wants to make me her god daughter! Ahahahaha.

Okay I'm kind of lazy to post more details 'cause I'm seriously darn tired.

DRAMA COMPANY, YOU GUYS ROCK TO THE MAX. You guys did your best today and I believe that everybody saw it!

xoxo;

PS : We still haven't got our results.

Pictures today :

( I love this picture like crazy, I think its damn nice! )

( I can't differenciate Benedict from the table -.- )

Please, with a cherry on top?

SYF'S IN 17 HOURS TIME.

I am sooo nervous that I feel like screaming, but I can't, 'cause everyone will think that I'm a nutcase. Cruel society :/


Anyway, went to get someone's present today with Jiayi & ??.


Bought a shirt after browsing through some stores, I think he'll like it. ?? was like damn afraid that we'll buy the same shirt he has at home -.-

Then Jiayi left, and me and ?? went to check out piano courses prices at Yamaha. Should I learn classical or pop piano? I can't make up my mind! :/


& Y'know, ?? kept on making stupid mistakes, then when I correct him, he'll go " Aiyah, I testing you only mar, see if you will make the mistake anot " -.-


Something happened, and I felt damn guilty now. As in guilty 'cause I made someone lost money. I am brooding over it for the whole darn day! I can almost feel wrinkles forming already!


Then on the MRT right, something extremely funny happened ( Sorry, but it was really damn funny ) and I had to get off at Braddell.


I walked the route that me and ... used to walk. & It was really nice. I took my own sweet time and I passed by my nursery school and primary school.

I miss everybody now :( P6.5 when are we having a gathering?!!! I miss you guys!


I miss the animal biscuits, macroni and colouring time in Nursery. Sighhhhhh.


But some people had to ruin it ...

There was this indian guy that walked past me and he was like " OI YOU THINK YOUR EYES VERY BLACK AH? "

Then I was like damn blur and he sticked out his tongue like as if he wanted to lick me -.- Its damn gross, seriously! I was like totally shocked after that.


Then when I was passing by Kheng Cheng ( my Pri school ), a bunch of china uncles have to whistle from across the street. I was like " -.- _l_ " I know I'm like damn vulgar but they're damn rude okay!


Went home and went out to dinner with Mummy & Bro after a while. Had Sakae and I'm god-damn-full now. I'm turning fat!


Once again, SYF TOMORROW!! OMG!!


WISH ME LUCK!!

xoxo;

You'll find someone else

I have no life. Seriously. Will someone just ask me out for dinner/shopping or whatsoever?

I'm gonna become a statue in front of the com soon.


16 more days to Star awards.
3 more days to drama SYF.


I have to wear black from body to toe! Omg but I think I'm allowed to wear jeans.

Shopping online is the awesome man! I think I'm gonna buy a pair of heels. Can't wait!


Okay, I totally have no idea what to post about, but I'm ordered by someone to post properly so ...


I'm gonna learn piano!


Easter's on Sunday!


I need to study, seriously.


Hah.


Okay I'm done, I hope that person is satisfied -.-

xoxo;


EDITED/

I realised that God is fair. He gave you something and he will take away something in return.

He gave me a nice friend, kind of like a love advisor to talk to, but He took away .... someone.

He took away my good friend, but gave me a new friend.

I don't know how I am suppose to feel now, but I feel comfortable with the situation now.

:)

Ending her cries

Hmmmm lemme see.

These few days are screwed up. Totally.

& I was feeling messed up just now, but thanks to Cloud for talking to me. He was telling me loads of racist jokes! Ahaha I don't think I'm allowed to post here, or else I'll be sued or something :/


& Unlimited sms is great. I still feel the pressure that I've always felt for 2 years. Y'know, like for every sms you've sent, you'll worry. So now I'm basically on a texting spree!

I think I'm gonna ask papa to send me to piano classes @ Yamaha. I've always been wanting to learn piano. I wished that my mum had sent me to ballet classes when I was young.


Easter's on Sunday, as told by Sourgrapes. I'm gonna prepare some stuff for people! ( If I can remember to bring it to school ) Wait for it :)



Shopping online, jokes, texting, lavender, sleeping, eating makes Juliana happy.

& I've actually bawled my eyes out on Wednesday night. I gave myself an hour to cry all my unhapiness out. & After that, I will never allow myself to cry for ...


I'm off to get some rest. Ciao!

xoxo;

Lonliness taught my heart to sting

I'm. Damn. Tired.


Lets start from yesterday night. I did my chemistry 'till 1 a.m, and I was tired, so I went onto my bed and intended to rest for a while. Yeah, I bet you can guess what happened, I fell asleep. -.- Isn't this how the story always ended?


I spent my whole morning wondering how am I gonna survive Chemistry. I survived, fortunately ( or else you wouldn't be reading this post now :D )


Had 2.4 km run. At first the teacher was like telling us that the timing was 18 mins for girls, and we were like " So long? We can take our own sweet time " In the end, I almost failed -.- Ironic huh.


Recess. Someone shot a bottlecap at me, and it was so painful that I teared. Yeah, I'm a drama-mama, whatever -.- You should try it for yourself


Rest of the day just passed like how it should. I'm having no life at all.


My unlimited sms is starting tomorrow morning, so feel free to text me! Finally!


Okay, I'm off to... Idk.

xoxo;

EDITED :

Before I forget about this, we had to set up a booth for International Friendship Day and our class is in charge of Laos. Then we were like wondering what Laos people eat, and Eugene was like " LaosHU! " ( Chi for mice ) Damn funny 'kay!

So many mysteries surrounding, but I have no clue

( A picture that I took when I was in school. Aren't sunsets the most beautiful thing on earth? )

I'm currently sweat-free, eyes almost closing, almost mute, and phone's vibrating.

Here's the big deal of the day : Interclass soccer, for girls.

I was expecting a lot of shrieking, cat fights and stuff, but it was okay.

I was the reserve -.- with Elaine. Both of us were like screaming " 3 Peace, 3 Peace! " x 100.

Hah, that explains my loss of voice now. Juliana's finally quiet eh? People like Doreen, Gerard, Ostrich and Tiff will be damn happy because its hard for me to be lame now.

3 Peace lost, we didn't get into the semi finals. BUT, good job girls ( Hazel, Fiona, Jiayi, Linda, Cheryl Ong & Elaine )!! Xin ku ni men le :D

In the end, 3 Faith won. Wow, the people around me were like punching into the air and screaming. Weishan did a really good job and she's really poor thing, her mouth bled because one ball flew into her face and she got two long cuts from the fence.

Went home like around 7.30 p.m? The air con of the bus was soooo comfortable that I almost forgot to alight -.- I should stop being so blur.

I went home and the first thing I did was to run into the shower and took a long nice bath. Once again, my lavender soap completely calmed me and when I finished showering, I felt like I could just sleep inside the bathroom.

And here I am, blogging about my oh-so-tiring day.

I have no voice. Okay, I can still speak, but I sound like a man -.- Girls, you might fall in love with my macho voice. Hah, just joking.

There's chemistry lesson tomorrow. Killer.

I'm off to ... Idk, rot?

xoxo;

No one knew she was so fragile, like a thin piece of lace.

' Tears poured down,When his words came out. Everything he said, Was just another doubt. '

- Sweetcherries09


A day filled with hell loads of emotions. Enjoyable, not.

I have to thank Cloud for talking to me last night. I was really down and he managed to cheer me up. Thanks. I really need it.


Today, boring day. The only crazy thing that happened was during chem class. Bhavna told me that Miss W. told her that we're suppose to go for our lunch break at 2.30 p.m and go for drama at 3 p.m. & Chem class is until 3 p.m


We asked to be excused at 2.30 p.m and guess what, an announcement was made at around 2.55 p.m that drama starts at 4?! Then I was like telling Bhavna that we're sooo dead. -.-



Okay, maybe its not really that interesting eh? But still, I got a huge shock.


& Bryan K. was like telling me " Mrs Gan was very dissapointed in you all, she said that you all don't have the initiative to come back and she's going to suspend you all "


I was dumb, to believe what he said -.- I was like freaking out then he told me its fake -.-



Interclass soccer for girls is tomorrow. E Math test and SS test tomorrow. Gosh ... like as if I'm not tensed up enough. :/


& I've had a share of mixed emotions just now. A moment I was tearing, the next moment I'm smiling, and the next moment I was like " Wth ". My emotions are crazy.


I'm off to study for my tests ...




soon.

xoxo;

Miserable at best

( Don't ask me why that part of my hair is always brown. I have no idea too. )

I need chocolates. Give me chocolates!

I'm stressed, tensed, miserable. I need some comfort food ): Damn, I don't even care if they're sinful anymore.

Boring weekend. Was supposed to go out but it was raining like crazy, WITH THUNDER. So its postponed to next week.

The weather's darn cool, though :D I slept like a baby throughout the whole morning.

& Thanks, mutantgrapes for you-know-what.

I went to the library to photocopy notes and my ' Revenge of the Wannabes ' by Lisi Harrison is still in transit for reservation! I'm waitinggggggggggggggg.

Had pizza for dinner. I'm turning fat and soon you guys will stop loving me and stop reading my blog and I'll be emo and go for liposuction.

Not :D

Okay, maybe for the turning fat part. But not for the part where you guys stopped loving me right? RIGHT?!!!

Hah. I'm going crazy -.-

There is Chemistry class & Interclass soccer for girls tomorrow. Ehmahgawddddddddddddd! I am damn nervous okay!

I've just realised that ... tomorrow ... is ... the .... SIXTH?! Bloodyhell, thats my index number! Mrs G.'s so gonna call me up for something. ARGH.

& Speaking of the interclass soccer, I am seriously freaking out. I will be the one causing my whole team to lose. God, please bless me. Amen. ):

I don't like Sundays!

I need a cup of hot chocolate and some lavenders to calm me down. Gosh.

And you know what? Sometimes I just feel like giving up on every single thing, and sleep for the entire day without having to worry about anything.

Should I ?

8 more days to drama SYF. Wish us luck please :D

xoxo;

What's gonna happen now?

Insecure

Alert : Emo, stop my blog music or else the post will seem very funny -.-

You know, emo post, happy song? W-E-I-R-D

Anyway, its 11:52 p.m and I'm posting the second post of the day.

I'm feeling super insecure. Seriously.

Maybe I shouldn't rely on you too much.

I'm in agony now.

I'm like thinking of all the things that could happen, making myself feel even more insecure.

There's soccer interclass on Monday, and the only thing I know about soccer is to kick the ball out of the field -.-

& There's chemistry, I lost three of my notes. Dead meat.

My huge pile of homework, which I haven't been doing.

I'm lagging behind for maths.


I seriously wish one of you can just give me a hug/pat on the shoulder and tell me
that everything in my life's gonna be fine.

I have a huge ambition, but I'm lazy.


I'm on the verge of tears, I'm worried about _____ & syf & chem & homework & ambition

I don't want to get a bronze for SYF. Please, I seriously want a gold. You have no idea how hard the entire drama team has worked for this SYF.


):


Someone, please comfort me. I need it.

8 days to SYF.

Vanishing memories

( I swear I didn't put on any makeup )

Short post today.

Am devouring a bar of Cadbury Milk Chocolate. Everybody say " Yum! " ( You must have noticed that I love to make everybody say something -.- )

Spent the entire afternoon rotting and playing MSN games with Jiayi, who claims that I used cheatcodes in MineSweeper -.-

& You know what, my mum went for the injection for cervix cancer today. & She ask me to get the injection! Its like $310 $600 for 3 different jabs for women and teens. She said its kind of painful but keep on asking me to get the jab. -.-

My brother is sucha joker. When he heard about my mum's jab, he was like " I also want! " then in the end he realised that its for cervix cancer when me and my mum couldn't stop laughing.

Should I get the jab? I heard its kind of painful.

And guys, I know you all are grossed out -.-

I'm darn stressed for my SYF, which is next Monday, 13 April. People, please wish me luck. I don't want to get a bronze. ):

xoxo;

& girl, don't think that I'm dumb. Thanks (:

Crash & Burn

I'm feeling such a great sense of accomplishment now, because I've managed to stalk someone.

( CCC : Its not ML or Miss N. ) ( Honeydew: Its not about the photo of you -.- )





I've been trying to search for her blog for like, a few months already? I've been so desperate to search her name in Google Blogs. ( FYI : I'm not a lesbo -.- , I'm straight )





Anyway, school today was darn boring. The only interesting thing might be the biology pratical we did today. The lab was as hot as a sauna, though. I've finally learnt to light up a burnsen burner, hah.





I used to think that bursen burners go around exploding, so there will always be someone else who'll light it up for me.







Chemistry was like setting foot in New York. Everything's so fast-paced. I think I was the happiest girl on Earth when it was time for Chapel. :/





Went for drama. Didn't have to -.- So I just went home after that. Wanted to check out the interclass at first, but papa told me to follow him to Plaza Sing for my phone, so I missed it.





I heard that 3 Peace got fourth, and everybody was mad with the referee. I hope the girls interclass on Monday will be better. ( I'm playing. No choice, there are 15 girls in my class, and 10 girls are required )







I was served by this woman named Ampy at th Starhub service centre. She is damn nice! She answered all of my questions without showing any irritation. ( Not that they are allowed to show anyway ).





My unlimited sms will most probably start on Monday, if there is nothing wrong with the paperworks. Everybody say " HOORAY! " :D





" Revenge of the wannabes " is still in transit, that means I can't pick it up from the library yet. I think I'm starting to forget the story :/





Ohohoh, I love Lavenders. I'm using some Lavender Soap and its awesome. It totally calms me down and makes me feel cosy.





Retro hairstyles are the new IN. ( Someone's so gonna kill me, lmaooo -.- )



xoxo;

Dark and brooding, Light & Fair

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KOH YU PIN :D


Yepps, she is the loved one I mentioned about yesterday (:


I don't know what to post for today, 'cause I'm like damn tired, despite taking a nap. & My life is soooo boring.


I shall write in point forms then (:


1. I should the stupidest person you've ever seen, because I put my thumb in the middle of the tables, and I slam both of the tables together -.- ( Doreen, its sooo not funny, you are sadistic! )

2. There was a monkey in our school during chinese period. Yes, monkey. Doreen was like saying that she want to see. Next time I'm so gonna bring her to th zoo. ( That's where she belongs (: Shhh, you didn't hear it from me )


3. There is chemistry tomorrow, which is NOT GOOD. I haven't even started on my homework! Sheesh.


4. I don't know whats wrong with someone, she's freakin' weird. ( No, I am certainly not mentioning about myself -.- )


5. My papa is going to down to the Starhub shop soon, I hope everything will be successful.


6. I've drank bubbletea 3 days in a row. Thanks to my greedy mouth & LiuHsingMan. Lmaooooo. I think my entire body system is dyed to a bright-strawberry-ice-blended pink. Eww.


7. I want to learn piano.

8. My dream of being a children's doctor is kind of becoming more and more impossible ):


'Kay I'm done. Heh :D

xoxo;

Everyone wants to be her

I think this will be my last post. I am going to take a break from blogging because I've quarrelled with someone just now. I'm really very tired. ): I can't believe all the hurtful things she has said to me. You seriously won't be able to imagine how hurt I feel now. Someone slaps you and calls you a biatch, and she turns out to be your best friend.

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL :D & you're a fool!



How can I EVER stop bloggin'? Heh. Then some of you stalkers-out-there-who-nevers-tag will go out of business! & I didn't quarrel with anyone, don't worry (: But, for people who hates me/my blog, sad for you man, I won't stop blogging, at least for now (:





Today was supposed to be the worst day of the week, but then it was kind of good, in fact.





Chemistry lesson. Mrs Gan's back in Singapore yo! Of course, the class wasn't really happy with that 'cause she's like darn strict with our hair and work. BUT, our chemistry improved within two periods, she's great.







P.E. We ran to Braddell road. It was a short distance, around 1.5 km? & I swear Mr. O is the best P.E teacher I've ever had!





Recess. Someone wanted to scare me, but I just kept on staring, so in the end didn't scare me. Heh.





SS/CME. Mdm C. was in a SUPERDUBERGOODMOOD. She was like doing all sorts of funny actions and laughter. Me and doreen laughed like crazy.





Eng. Got a change of teacher. The new teacher is awesome, she's so much better compared to LTH.



Afterschool I went tuh bubbletea with HuinJiayi, HsingManLiu and RuhuiKwan. I laughed like crazy along the way, like some mad woman with mad cow disease.



& Jiayi was like exclaiming at dogs like as if she never see dogs before. Lmaooo! Then Hsing Man was like saying Jiayi thinks that dogs are a rare species -.-





Went home, and I'm gonna do my homework soon! I'm going to sleep early today! :D





My posts are getting more and more boring.





Tomorrow's the birthday of someone I love, can't wait :D



xoxo;